Somewhere We Lived
video, 64 minutes 32 seconds
Somewhere We Lived was born out of the decision to relocate from the place I was born (Orlando, FL) to Los Angeles.
“Lived” is an important aspect of the title because it suggests that I was experiencing my final weeks in my hometown as if they had already happened. The application of a past tense to my present circumstance allowed me to invent feelings of nostalgia for events as they happened. Everyday leading up to my departure was experienced both in real-time and with a sense of retrospection. This “retrospection of the present” played on my more obsessive characteristics and together formed in me this compulsion to archive. The project began simply as that—an archive of the place I grew up. What started as straight forward documentation soon transitioned to staging improvised works of narrative fiction, which itself took on the qualities of representation through recreation.
However, the fallacy inherent in this type of representation—that being that a recreation of the past ultimately amounts to the creation of a false history—forced me to see the fallacy inherent to all representation. Meaning that when you place an object in a frame you exclude the world outside it. At best you can merely allude to it. Thus every form of documentation, artistic or otherwise is by its very nature an act of revisionism. I saw this realization as an opportunity to use medium as a way to negate representation (essentially the medium negating itself) by foregrounding the ease in which it can decay into abstraction. I then reassemble the pieces into something reflective of my own narrative timeline.
It is here that our connections to the past, memory loss, and transitioning into adulthood are re-told in the tenuous grasp we have over the mediums on to which our society reflects itself. Somewhere We Lived blends narrative fiction, documentary, and analog artifacts in an attempt to reconstruct the act of losing one's connection to place, time, and body.